Wednesday, September 14, 2011 @ 9/14/2011 11:31:00 AM
Assalamualaikum~
Dah baca basmalah belum ? Baca basmalah dulu, lepas tu baru teruskan membaca. InsyaAllah. :)
It has been a quite tough month for me. I always thought that I am well prepared to come back to Malaysia. But every time I have that feeling it will turn upside down when I am in Malaysia. I am not as strong as I am when I am in Egypt. But that is the fact, the reality that I'm facing now. How can my iman becomes extremely torn by myself from the degree that I can assume in comfort area fall into a critical degree which I find it hard to pull it up again. Now, I begin to think and question myself with unanswerable stuffs. I'm stuck with my own thought.
Cukuplah dengan bahasa Inggeris tunggang langgang tue. Kita sambung pakai bahasa Melayu pulak. C=
But spending almost 3 days in TTS Serdang really knock up my head. Bang my head actually. I really feel down and scare and depress and stress and what so ever negative feelings. But instead of sink with those emotions, I come to realize that, yes these are the feelings that I should feel. And I should be serious about fixing those feelings so that I can move with positiveness. But it is not as easy as words to be said, song to be sang and voice to be screamed.
Bila kita dah betul-betul sedar, dah terketuk pintu hati, jangan tunggu-tunggu lagi. Jangan teragak-agak lagi, Mulakan langkah. Ya, memamg payah. Tak dapat dinafikan. TAPI!!! Kalau kita tak bergerak sekarang, janagn terkejut kalau kita tak dapat nak bergerak sampai bila-bila. Bukan mudah untuk bermula, tapi sangat senang untuk berhenti. Ingat tue.
So Muwahhidah, you have to move now. Like literally NOW!
YaAllah, I am so afraid of my disadvantages and my flaws as I cannot be a perfect human being neither as you 'Abidah. I'm afraid of what will happen to me. But Allah, You've chose me and I proud to be chosen by You. Proud to be in this path. YaAllah, please make me strong. As strong as the lion in the desert, as strong as the wind blow. O Allah, only from you I seek help and forgiveness. Do enrich me with humility and wisdom. Guide me with the best guidance. Ameen ya Rabb.
I am always afraid. But InsyaAllah this is the afraid of a slave that will push him to move InsyaAllah.
Wassalam~
Dah baca basmalah belum ? Baca basmalah dulu, lepas tu baru teruskan membaca. InsyaAllah. :)
It has been a quite tough month for me. I always thought that I am well prepared to come back to Malaysia. But every time I have that feeling it will turn upside down when I am in Malaysia. I am not as strong as I am when I am in Egypt. But that is the fact, the reality that I'm facing now. How can my iman becomes extremely torn by myself from the degree that I can assume in comfort area fall into a critical degree which I find it hard to pull it up again. Now, I begin to think and question myself with unanswerable stuffs. I'm stuck with my own thought.
Cukuplah dengan bahasa Inggeris tunggang langgang tue. Kita sambung pakai bahasa Melayu pulak. C=
But spending almost 3 days in TTS Serdang really knock up my head. Bang my head actually. I really feel down and scare and depress and stress and what so ever negative feelings. But instead of sink with those emotions, I come to realize that, yes these are the feelings that I should feel. And I should be serious about fixing those feelings so that I can move with positiveness. But it is not as easy as words to be said, song to be sang and voice to be screamed.
Bila kita dah betul-betul sedar, dah terketuk pintu hati, jangan tunggu-tunggu lagi. Jangan teragak-agak lagi, Mulakan langkah. Ya, memamg payah. Tak dapat dinafikan. TAPI!!! Kalau kita tak bergerak sekarang, janagn terkejut kalau kita tak dapat nak bergerak sampai bila-bila. Bukan mudah untuk bermula, tapi sangat senang untuk berhenti. Ingat tue.
So Muwahhidah, you have to move now. Like literally NOW!
YaAllah, I am so afraid of my disadvantages and my flaws as I cannot be a perfect human being neither as you 'Abidah. I'm afraid of what will happen to me. But Allah, You've chose me and I proud to be chosen by You. Proud to be in this path. YaAllah, please make me strong. As strong as the lion in the desert, as strong as the wind blow. O Allah, only from you I seek help and forgiveness. Do enrich me with humility and wisdom. Guide me with the best guidance. Ameen ya Rabb.
I am always afraid. But InsyaAllah this is the afraid of a slave that will push him to move InsyaAllah.
Wassalam~
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